Enter the Sanctuary

Angel sculpture holding candle

It’s all mist and veils to start with – 

except for the title,

a line lifted from another poem,

a flame to which I touch

the wick of my small candle.

Carried to the blank page,

it flickers in currents of air

exhaling the breath of so many spirits.

I cup my hands around it

till fire takes hold

of wick and wax,

and I see the opening,

take my first step into the labyrinth.

Though mist still shrouds

the circuits and turns,

candlelight shows

where to set my foot —

and no more.

How this roundabout

twisting-on-itself path

will lead to the center

I do not know,

nor can I yet fathom

what I will find there.

Sometimes the way is overgrown

with brambles and gorse,

thickets so tall and tangled

they hide the center.

I carry no machete,

no pruning hook or shears,

only bare hands

to unravel thorny vines.

Do not shun your doubt and fear.

Be patient. Be humble.

Taste the blood on your torn finger

and heed the spiderweb

as you slip past its dark weaver.

Curious and awestruck

audacity

will take you

where you want

to go.


Dear reader, at this time of winter darkness, about to light the fourth candle on the Advent wreath, watching for the return of light heralded by the winter solstice, and admittedly overwhelmed by the consumerist frenzy that hijacks Christmas in our culture, I wish you sanctuary — your own pool of light in the labyrinth — and a pathway to hope in the New Year.

Advent wreath with three candles lit

Winter Solstice 2016

labyrinth by the ocean

One hundred steps to the center of the labyrinth,

and light enters the world as gently

as the pilgrim making her way to the center.

Can you tell the moment when the foxtail

takes shape out of the night

and the pine needles assume their points?

In the pause between

breathing out

and breathing in,

the last star fades into the brightening sky,

gone to the place you journey in your sleep.

 

I watch my thoughts dart off

like a startled flock of sparrows

in twenty directions.

I have written ten thousand words

that don’t mean a thing.

Now the solstice calls me to the labyrinth,

and my feet long for the one hundred steps.